I dunno wot to do.. juz reached home.. 337am.. Im lost.. Im confused.. I feel some what responsible.. so many things going on in my mind..
ridiculous? stupid? fucked up?
or perhaps all of the above? I think that describes it.

its weird.. its strange.. its just.. i dunno..

i cant stand in the middle for much longer yet i cant choose one over the other.
i cant keep going on like this.. sooner or later i will form my own opinion.. yet i cant.. who am i supposed to be in favor of? thats something i cant choose.. there is no right answer..
its difficult not being able to form an opinion.. its hard to be neutral.. yet thats where i stand.

in one way or another i was against everything.. in a selfish way.. against it for the sake of myself. perhaps it is partially my fault. i do apologize sincerely. may be its best if i just hybernate.

i try to think of all the positive.. probably the most healthiest option at this point in time...

good night all.