What do I want out of life? I wonder often. I want yet when I get it I have doubts.

Having too much time on my hands yet not enough to think things through thoroughly. Some issues I know the answer, the solution, the resolution to the full extent without changing my mind. Yet others I just don't know. Is it fear? Is it the feeling of being lost? Perhaps it's just out of loneliness. Perhaps loneliness. I mean everyone has left. Sad to say but it's the truth. Most of friends being international students, this time of the year is always a heartbreaking one. I just don't know what to do. Soon, if not already, work will dominate my life. It will become my life. However of course work doesnt happen 24/7. The free time is for me to fill.
To sleep? Everyone needs em.
To shop? Alone for what?
To eat? Just to get fat?

In one way or another it gives me time to myself, yet perhaps it's just too much time.
May be its a good thing though. Reflect upon my happenings, just to see how far I have come. Just to think about what I could have done so to learn for the future.

I just don't know what to do. I'm just bored. I'm just too alone. I'm just missing all of you.
Some will come back soon. Some will come back later.
Some I shall never see again.
Some will be remembered in my hearts forever. And for some, they will be forgotten and put in the trash can before I chuck it in a big ass trash fire for all I care.

Alot has happened this year. There is pretty much one whole month till the end of this year.
This year will be one unforgetable year.
Friends, family, classmates, rotting buddies, drinking gang, enemies, random strangers, freaks and all, because of you this year became what it has.