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Friday, March 25, 2005
Althought I know this, I hate and ashamed to admit. Life is like a rollercoaster. Not just any rollercoaster.. thoes ones which are pitch black that you dont know where your going. You climb only to be fooled by a rapid downhill and sharp turns. Makes you feel sick at times, makes you scared at times, makes you wanna scream.. but the overcrying screams of others makes your voice unheard.

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
A very very hot day indeed. Reached 41.9 degrees... but I will say it was 42. What is with this? Its as if the seasons are late by a month and a half.

Despite the heat almost killing me by evaporating my flesh away.. I feel very happy today. Perhaps its because the fact that I start my easter break... or perhaps because I lost a lil lil weight due to the heat. But the truth is.. its not that why I am really merry... another reason.. top secret

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23:59
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Monday, March 21, 2005
I wonder.. perhaps its just a big joke..
have I dug myself too deep? I dont want to get out yet.. not ever.
what if this is just a joke?

my greatest fear, insecurity.

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23:42
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
At 10:53AM (Japan Time), an earthquake of magnitude 7 hit my hometown of Fukuoka. Hardest hit area is the city center which meajured 6 on the ricter scale. This is perhaps the largest earthquake that Fukuoka has experienced in recorded history. The last known large earthquake date back to 1898, which meajured magnitude of 6. When I woke up at around 30 minutes after the incident, with very information still released. I, naturally, started to worry. But as hours went by, number of injured were quite little, and hardly any , if any at all were seriously injured. Death of zero by the look of it. What a relief.

The large earthquake which hit the city of Kobe (known as Hanshin-Awaji Earthquake) few years back meajured magnitude of 7.2, which killed thousands of residence. Hence my worry. Although I still cannot contact my family in Fukuoka, I feel relieved to see the reports that I have been reading, and of the graphics of damages it has caused, quite minimal for such a large earthquake, not to mention very minimal number of injury reported. Tsunami warning was cancelled approximately one hour after the earthquake, and quite numerous aftershocks has occured, but thoes were quite small tremours.



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Also today marks the 10th anniversary of the Tokyo Metro Sarin Attack.
Over 5500 people were affected anc caused 12 death when the nerve gas was released into 3 different comuter trains in the city of Tokyo.set by a religious group on an act of domestic terrorism. I pay my respects to thoes who are affected in anyway by this horrible incident.

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15:20
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
As I sit here in my empty room, I think to myself,
Or atleast I am trying to think, to gather information, to answer a question which was never asked.
What is going on in my head? That I, myself do not know.
Something seems missing, something should be here, but its not.
What is the question perhaps? Could be many things.
But perhaps one stands out the most. Yet, perhaps that one thing may not be it.
For the moment however, I believe it is the one thing missing.
How long will this last? Will it be a temporary matter? Or will it be permanent? What in my powers can I do?

How I wish life is like a fairy tale. Although something goes wrong, in the end it is always happily ever after.
Happiness.. Is this something that a person earns? Or will it just come to you when the time is right.
One thing is for sure, I could do with bit of that happiness right at this moment.

Perhaps its not so bad, atleast for now. I have other matters that I can turn to and concentrate on.
Yes, that is, study. But no one person can just study for the whole day, the week, the month and so on.
There will be times that I am alone, where i quietly think to my self, just as I am doing at this moment in time.
Reflect upon my doings in the past, trying to make the correct decision for the future yet to come, all at the same time trying to cope with the reality which faces me right now.

Let me hug you, kiss you and dream beside you.

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17:52
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
はっきり言ってかなり気持ち悪い。
この気持ちは一番いやな気持ちだ。
なぜだろう?
最高の日々をすごして、現実に戻るって言うことだ。
現実はやはり辛い。
恋しい。あまりにも恋しすぎる。
でもこの辛さを乗り越せねば、やはり人生は進んでいかないだろう。

はじめ会った日は緊張してた。
でも二人で時を過ごせば過ごすほど、やや暖かな気持ちを感じてきた。
でも、この日々は、もう一瞬かのような、速さでなくなってしまったのだ。
やはり現実ってこういうことさ。

いくら何が何でも自分は強く生きるべきこと。
それが正しい生き方だろうか。
時には寂しく、苦しく感じるだろう。
また時には嬉しく、楽しく過ごす日々もあろう。
人生には最悪と最高のバランスがいるものだろう。
もちろん人々は最高上限を求めている。
いや、その上限の一回りくらい必死に探している。
それは愛であろうが、何であろうが。
人間はやはり自分が欲しいもの、自分を幸せにするものしか受け止めない。

これはいったい考えすぎだろうか。
自分でもわからない。
自分の気持ちが、心の中から現そうと思いつつ、必死だがなぜかうまくいかない。
愛されるはやはり愛することから始まる。
だが、愛することは愛されないとできぬかも。

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22:16
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Long time ago..
Yes that was when I last posted..
Today I was shown by a friend of mine of his new blog.. and hence kind of reminded me.. must thank him perhaps.

From the time I last posted a million years ago, I have encountered new things. Perhaps its not wise to spill all the bean in here... but one was that I finally took a holiday... after 2 years of being stuck in an isolated city... in the middle of no where... it was nice.. very nice infact.

Another is that I had started my new semester. For thoes planning to study, is studying or have studied Law (Corporation) 224, let me say.. I hate it. How do you manage? A friend have told me that his friend got a HD init.. there must be some freaks in the world...

That is about all that I can spill.. or perhaps that the world is ready to hear... if that makes any sense.

Thanks for the ciggies
\(*^u^)/
u know who u are.

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16:41
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